michelle,singdy n ck jie:i can see my pics when i open it in uni?? farNi...?let me check it later...

singdy: its som1 i never mention b4...but............... tell u later

i'm so excited these few days~ coZzz...I AM GOING HOME NEXT WEEK!!! yeaHhOooOoooo~~~~~~~i can go shopping, i can go to pasar malam, i wanna goto LIFE! cafe, buy VCD, eat 'look look',gn, rapat laksa, yeongwai duck rice,claypot rice, white coffee, old town curry mee, fook sing's food......yuMmieeEee~~~ i miss u soya, i miss u yanyan, i miss u ahmai, i miss u mengfai, i miss my highskool chem teacher,i miss nkids, i miss eric, i miss kaiyun, i miss yippie, i miss manling, i miss all my dear friends~~n i miss my mummy, my daddy and my cookie~~!!!!i miss everything at home, my pillow, my bedsheet, my chairs, my mirror and even my toiletbowl~ i havent seen 'them' for a month!!! grrRr...but i'm only gonna stay home for a week...i have to plan it well so that i wont waste even a second!! haha~ i wanna party, i wanna drink, i wanna eat~~!!

Countdown to goin home =>>>-= 8 days =-

a lier....and yet i trusted you, nomatter how many times u've let me down.. i've tried so hard to put everything down, suit to my new life...i've used so much energy and time to get happier..but what..whenever i began to get u off my mind..whenever i stop thinking of u..u'll appear..with those stewpik word....giving me hope, make me start thinking of u.........i wont forgive u-thats what i told myself..since senior 1..u've been a coward...u r useless....u never strive for what u want..u idiot...i'm so disappointed ...a week before i leave..u didnt show up at all, no phone calls, no emails, din see u online, din meet u at all...i told myself that i will never contact u anymore...gRRRRrr!!!but 2 weeks later, i sent u a bd card ..again i told myself, thats the last time writing to u.....it was few weeks later, i saw u on icq, i told myself once more not to msg u..anyway i still hope to get a msg from u!! BUT U DIDNT!! wtf...................................yea, and someone typing this msged him.....and the answer i get is....'i dunt wanna be sad'...what a simple answer....u broke my heart...into infinity pieces....i've been here for almost a month!! and what i get is only 2 sms from u...!!!that day i recieved an email from cecin, she said that i'm brave, enthusiatic??!! but i know i'm not...i am always trying to give up...but theres always something keep pulling me back....itz u..idiot.......please leave my life, if you don't really want to care bout me, don't say sweet things to me, don't ever give hope to me!!!

itZz midnite-1.49am--i'm feeling bad..i don't know why...feel like crying..feel like shouting..i want to scream..i want some excitements...i need something to activate my tissues...i  feel so dull, depressed...i feel that everyone around me is really enjoying their life but i'm the one who is left out..i feel like slapping myself...feel like ......it is becoz of the night? or the environment? or lack of sleep? study stress? or...homesick? i don't know...i ate alot these two days..i don't know why, just can't control...n growing fat makes my mood worst................